We suffered a big loss in the fall of 2014. My father-in-law committed suicide. He was suffering from depression after losing his wife to cancer 3 years early. Losing my mother-in-law had been hard. Watching her suffer and fight of the cancer was a difficult time for the whole family. She was diagnosed in March of 2011 and lost her battle to cancer in October 2011, so it was quite fast. After that, my father-in-law (who lived next door to us), spent much of his time with us. He was at our house for dinner every night. We travelled together on our summer vacations. He was starting to have few health issues of his own, largely due to the fact that he couldn't give up smoking and drinking. Not that I can blame someone in their 70's for not wanting to make lifestyle changes. On September 19, 2014, I came home to a message from the rehabilitation center he was supposed to be attending, saying he had not answered the door to the van driver that morning and had missed his therapy for the day. I knew something was wrong. I went next door and eventually found a note he had left and then found him in his car in the garage. It was traumatic and changed me forever. This happened a few days before my last long run before marathon training and taper. Therefore, my 3rd marathon ended up being my worst. I had also suffered a foot injury during training, so I had missed much of my training. Not a good combination. I felt accomplished just to finish the marathon, as it had been an emotional time for our family. It took many months before I wasn't worried daily that something horrible was going to happen. The week of September 19 was difficult this year, as well.
At this point, I have completed 15 half marathons. My most recent half at the beginning of October, my finish time was a 2:07. This was my second best (my best being a 2:04). I wasn't going for a PR this time, this was just a training fun while training for my 4th Marathon. Next weekend I will run my 4th Marathon. I'm hoping for a PR! This marathon training season has been my chance to feel like I've made a comeback from the difficult fall/winter of 2014. It's been my way to heal from the losses. Doing well this weekend will help me feel like I am finally back to who I was before last September. Somehow it's part of the grieving and recovery process for me.
I have also attempted a few triathlons. I completed 2 sprint triathlons in the summer of 2014. I worked all winter and spring on my swimming to be able to perform better in the summer of 2015 (and be more comfortable in the open water), but then I had a mole with irregular cells which needed removed. Due to the biopsy then removal of the mole, I was not able to swim in open water during much of the summer. Between that and our summer travel plans, I was limited on the weekends I could fit in a triathlon. I ended up having to do a duathlon instead. It was a challenging run/bike/run course. I felt good to complete it, but I was a bit disappointed that all my swim training hadn't been put to the test. Now I haven't swam since August, because I just haven't made the time between work, coaching, marathon training, and family life. After the marathon, I plan to work swimming back into my schedule. It was great for recovery from running and a nice whole body workout.
My husband has completed an IronMan and four half IronMan distance races. He just signed up for his next IronMan for next September, which will keep life busy. He is currently battling Plantar Fascia in his feet, so he is unable to run the upcoming Marathon this weekend. He is in recovery mode (begrudgingly), but it's more important for him to get healed before starting next year's triathlon work. He has decided he is better off doing triathlons, as a former high school and college swimmer.
This blog has been a bit rambling, but that is kind of how my thoughts are right now. It helps to get them out, whether anyone else looks at this or not. Hopefully I will remember to get back on and update after the marathon! Wish me strength and speed to get my goal!







